Refreshed and Renewed

Since registering Flashpoint back in January, I’ve stuck with a fairly basic(OK bland) theme. Concentrating on my writing and thoughts, I’ve left tried to let the words speak for themselves. But the flat look to the site has bothered me over the last few months.

Yes, I like lighthouses.

If you have followed me long enough on Twitter then you’ll know that I’m a fan of Tara O’Connor’s comic book work. She has an incredible style to her work and wanted to commission Tara for an art piece to use as a header. So after the last few weeks we have knocked ideas back and forth. You can see a sneak peek of the outcome below.

Once the final piece has been tweaked it will sit in pride of place as the header for Flashpoint. Let me know what you think.

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‘What are you thinking?’

Before you think anything, no I’m not throwing out a question there. It’s probably wise I don’t know what everyone else thinks. Imagine the mess that would leave me in!

There are times that my mind races ahead of the speed at which my brain can handle. These are, I suppose, a very mild version of a manic episode that those with bipolar suffer from. I rarely get these moments now but they were prevalent before I got help from the doctor. Before I recognised that I’d probably been suffering from depression for years, these moments of ‘racing thoughts’ would be brushed off as an side-effect of having a good mood. Now I know them to be a small warning to be mindful.

Chant

It’s strange but I seemed to have developed an automatic response to those racing thoughts. I have found myself verbalising the words, ‘what are you thinking?’ to myself. Almost like a rebuttal, a way of breaking where my runaway thoughts are taking me. It does do the trick and it brings the present back to me. Maybe it’s the shock of verbalising the words rather than the words themselves? It feels like a chant, that I’ve identified that the thought process is being broken by racing impulses.

Those racing thoughts themselves? That’s probably best well left alone or at least for another time.

19 Years Online

Can scarcely believe that I’ve spent close to half my life connected to the internet. I signed up with prestel on-line back in November 1997. This was the time of dial-up where connecting to the Internet would cost you by the minute. So where playing Meridian 59 not only cost money every time I played it would also tie-up my parents phone line for hours on end. Never did I expect how my life would be so tied-into technology as it is now.

heathersThe beast

Two TV shows have given me pause to mull over life before and after the beast that is the Internet. Both are ingenious, life-affirming and have motivated me more than anything else this year. Am so happy that they have been around and weirdly enough they both reunite me with an actress and actor from a film I loved, pre-Internet, Heathers. So there’s kind of full circle, for both Christian Slater and Winona Ryder, with Mr. Robot and Stranger Things. The ’90s were periods where both these actors were everywhere. Since the turn of the new century, the pair seemed to have fallen out of favour(shame really as they are a talented pair). It’s nice to have them back and in TV shows that really connect with me. Christian shows that same unpredictable side to him as Mr. Robot as he did as J.D. in Heathers. Both these characters play to his strengths as an actor; emotive but hard to fathom. I actually find Winona’s Joyce, from Stranger Things, a little irritating and ever so slightly overplayed. If anything though, that’s down to the direction and it’s possible I’m finding it hard to adjust to her portrayal more – that and the crush I’ve had on her since Heathers makes the adjustment a little hard to accept!

Motivation

Current morning motivation routine this week has seen me up by 9am, breakfast while watching at least one episode of Mr. Robot followed by email catch-up and task priority for the day. It’s been doing wonders having a great bit of TV to watch first thing. I have only got a few episodes left, of season one, of Mr.Robot and need to find something to fill the gap. Any suggestions of TV shows that would work?